Am I Just Imagining It?

I'm not entirely sure... but I think I got my first feel of putting on some pants and them fitting a lot easier.

Although, I could be imagining it.

I mean, I put on a pair of shorts yesterday afternoon that have never been tight on me... but for some reason, when I put them on yesterday afternoon, they felt a LOT looser.

I had the same feeling when I put on my walking pants.   I use a pair of stretch capris to walk in, and it felt like there wasn't so much stretch needed.  Like they weren't so tight around my stomach.

I'm wondering, now, if I should try out some other pants.  Pants that I haven't worn in a while.  Pants that are still hanging in my closet, fit me the last time I wore them, they were just on the really snug side.  Should I give it a go?  Will it disappoint me if I was just imagining it?  

I know I can't have lost enough weight in 8 days (since I started taking my pill) to start having my clothes fit better...could I?

On Friday, I had a couple people at work ask me if I'd lost weight.  I never know how to take that question.  I mean, yeah...I'm trying...but I never know how to respond.  The last time I weighed, I'd lost 4lbs since starting the pill.. but the people I work with saw me at that starting weight.  Have I lost enough this week that it's noticeable?  Or was I just wearing clothes that made me look that way?

On Wednesday, it will be a week and 4 days since starting my pill.  That's 11 days.  And before starting my pill, I wasn't any lighter than I was on the last day of school.  In fact, I was a couple of pounds heavier.  

While I don't want to get my hopes up that my weigh-in this week will be awesome, I can't help but feel that I'm going to see a pretty drastic loss.  And if I don't, I worry that I will be disappointed.  I'm trying to convince myself that it's early days... I'm losing slow and steady and a loss of 1-2lbs a week is ideal.  A loss is loss.  But, I can't help but feel that my clothes are starting to feel a little looser, and wondering if people are actually seeing some difference or are just trying to be nice because they know that I'm trying to lose weight.

I'm forcing myself to stay off the scale to wait and see.  

Nothing like a little drama to kick off my week, right?  It might help motivate me to really push myself in the gym tonight and tomorrow so that I pull an even better number on Wednesday morning.  Although, history tells me that when I start a new work-out routine, I end up gaining a couple of pounds the first week because of water retention from the exercising.  Guess I really need to make sure that I stay on top of drinking tons of water, too.

I know it appears that I'm a little flustered this morning.  But, the truth is, I love feeling so excited about my progress.  Now that I know there should be some.  One of the main reasons I stopped weekly weigh-ins before, was because I knew I wasn't putting in 100% and knew that the scale would reflect that each week.  I figured by putting my weigh-ins to monthly, I had more time to put in some effort that might show a minor loss.  And again, a loss is a loss.

It's different now.

I'm putting in 100%.  I'm doing everything I've been told to do. Logging, counting calories, drinking lots of water, and today will start the exercise routine portion...even though last week, I got PLENTY of exercise from getting my classroom ready to go.

And I know some will try and tell me that I shouldn't rely on the scale to monitor my progress.  But, the truth is.. that IS how I have to monitor my progress.  My doctor says I have to lose 100lbs to get me in the healthy range.  If I'm not losing, I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing...or not doing it correctly.  I can gauge some success on how my clothes fit, how I feel, and all that jazz... but at the end of the day, the number on the scale reflects everything.

Especially this early in the game.

Sure, once I've lost 50lbs or even 20lbs, I might not have as much success and will have to adjust for that... but starting out is usually when the biggest change happens.  Hopefully it's that way for me.

But, until Wednesday morning, I just have to wait and see.  And gauge based on clothing and feelings. And motivate myself to do the work-outs and stay vigilant with my eating.  

And that's exactly what I intend on doing.

Till next time!