It's been three weeks since I posted a Weigh In Post. Mostly because there hasn't been any weight lost in the past three weeks. In that time I've been holding steady at 246lbs, wondering if I'd ever break through that plateau.
To be fair, I can't really call it a plateau. A plateau is when you stop losing weight while still doing everything you can to lose the weight....and it means you have to up your game. I hit a wall because I stopped trying. To lose, anyway. I was managing to maintain, which meant I wasn't doing anything my doctor told me I needed to be doing.
This past week, I've gone back to trying again. Eating 1200 calories a day. Taking my pill. There hasn't been any steady walking, and I really have no reason why.
What I can say is that since last week, I've lost 1.2lbs. This week, my scale says 244.8lbs.
A month ago, I was dying to get to that spot. To be under 245lbs...and to have lost more than 20lbs. But, because it's taking me so stinking long to get to it, its kinda lost its pazazz.
Losing 20lbs in 2 months was going to be awesome.
Losing 20lbs in 3 months, just isn't as awesome.
I will take some pictures this morning when I go get dressed so you can see the difference from three months ago and today. Although I'm really hoping that it won't be 3 months until I can post the next set of progress pictures.
Of course, these next two months are going to be TOUGH!! Halloween is just a day away. Thanksgiving is just a month away. And Christmas will follow a few weeks later.
This is usually the time of year where I start thinking that it's not worth trying to lose weight. Just focus on sensibility as to not gain it all back.
I can't do that, this time.
My doctor has told me that if there is no weight loss, there's no pill. And even though I know I could lose the weight without the pill, I'm also confident that the pill is giving me the boost I need. It doesn't curb my hunger, but it does curb the cravings. I can eat... but I can't eat as much. And the pill also messes with my senses. Smells that I used to find absolutely irresistible are now kind of nauseating.
But that only happens when I'm taking the pill.
The minute I start to falter, the cravings come back. The over eating comes back. And the irresistible smells are once again irresistible.
In the three weeks that I maintained, I took my pill maybe a couple of times. And even after visiting the doctor the last time, and hearing his warnings about not getting the pill anymore if it wasn't helping, I didn't jump right back in to taking it. Somehow, I was trying to convince myself that I didn't need it.
But, I started taking it again this week...and BAM. Down another pound.
While I don't want to become subservient to the pill, and depend on it being the only way to lose the weight, I do feel that it's helping kick start my motivation. The proof is in the pudding that I'm not ready to fly solo. I absolutely, 100% believe that when I'm ready... when I've lost enough weight to really keep the momentum going... I'll be ready to say goodbye to the pill without putting the weight back on. I maintained for 3 weeks without the pill, I know that I'll be just fine when I do decide to give it up for good.
So, there we are. Finally back on the horse and losing the weight.
Even though I'm not as stoked for reaching this milestone... only because it took so long... I will say that I do feel pretty happy. I can see the changes my body has started to make. I can feel some of the differences.
Last night, as I was walking out to my car after a very long Family Night at work, one of my coworkers stopped me. She wanted to tell me that even though she hasn't said anything before, she had noticed that I was really looking good.
It was perfect timing for such a wonderful compliment.
It meant a lot for her to say something, and I know that she meant it. It turned around my whole perspective on my visual success....and I got to leave with a big smile on my face.
Yes, I am starting to look better. Still have a long way to go until I believe I look "good"... but I'll get there.
PLUS, if I can lose weight over the next couple of months, then NOTHING will ever stand in my way. I'm confident and ready to prove to myself that holidays or no holidays, my weight loss comes first!!
OK... next time you hear from me, I'll have progress pictures to share.
Till next time!!
Oh honey - I just wish you could KNOW that you can do this like I know you can. Great loss! Keep it up!
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