Got to Make it Quick....

OK.  I only have a few minutes before I need to get to getting ready for work.

But, I wanted to at least come by and share that my first day back to work was AWESOME.  You can read all about it on my other blog... www.lifeandtimesofjoblog.blogspot.com

I was so nervous about going back in terms of my eating.  What sweets were waiting?  What temptations would I run in to? 

Thankfully - none. 

I stuck to eating my sandwich for lunch...and didn't even want the crackers I brought for a snack.  

I was on my feet pretty much all day, and that took it's toll on me.  It's been a few months since I've stood for that long.  By the end of the day, my legs and back were killing me.  But, it further instilled the fact that I really need to start walking now.  I have to start cracking down on working out and making those aches and pains disappear.

I'll openly admit, I faltered at dinner time.  I had to pick up something for dinner after work, and being that neither I nor Hubby were in the mood to cook, I grabbed two ready made pizzas at Walmart.  Even though that was probably the worst thing I could have selected... I only ate two pieces of pizza, versus the five slices I usually eat.  

I also made sure to pick up a veggie loaded pizza.  It was stacked with peppers, onions, mushrooms, and tomatoes.  Not healthy at all when they are all covered in cheese and grease, but at least I got some veggies in me.

I have to admit, the grease on the pizza did make me a little queasy.  After I ate, I felt yucky.  Like my body was not impressed with my food choices.  Even though I haven't eaten all healthy the past week, the amount of grease in one meal was NOT what my body was ordering.

I also got my test results back from all the blood work I had at my doctor's office last week.  I was happy to see that my blood sugar level was well within the realms of normal, and the doctor had no concern about pre-diabetes.  My cholesterol, however?  Yeah, not so good.  The doctor even believes I might want to consider taking some medicine for it.

That, I want to hold off on.  I know that if my cholesterol is that high, I run a greater risk for a heart attack... but I also know that if I really buckle down and lose the weight, my cholesterol will improve.  I want to give it a year to see how much improvement I can make with just eating and exercise.  If, by this time next year, the doctor is still very worried about my cholesterol levels...then I will take the medicine.  

This was kinda the scenario I was expecting.  A life or death situation where the weight had to come off, or run an extreme risk of an early demise.  I need to know that if I quit...again... I'm putting myself in to grave danger.  If I don't run the course, lose the weight, and get healthier - I'm literally killing myself.

So.  Game On.  

I have to lose the weight.  My life is at stake.

And that's all I have time for.

Got to go get ready for work.

Till next time!

Time to Take a Trip to the Doctor

I wrote about this same topic on my other blog this morning... but it also has a good relationship to my weight loss efforts, so I'm writing about it here too.

Today, I'm going to the doctor.  For a wellness check-up.  

Meaning, I'm not sick... I just want to make sure everything is working the way it's supposed to.

Being overweight, that always brings a whole new level of expectations.

I expect to hear that I'm overweight.

I expect to hear that my weight has drastic importance to my chances of having other diseases or illnesses.

I expect to hear that I need to lose weight in order to avoid getting sick or developing illnesses and diseases triggered by weight.

Basically all stuff I already know.

But, then there's always that niggling feeling that they're going to tell me something I didn't know.  

Have I already developed one of those illnesses?

Is there something already wrong with me that I didn't know about?

Have I finally been dodging the bullet long enough and my weight loss efforts finally come down to a life or death situation?

It's been a really long time since I've had a wellness check.  The last time I had all those tests done, I was pregnant with Jelly.  I made it through a pregnancy being extremely overweight and not developing high blood pressure or gestational diabetes.  My doctor was even surprised that my cholesterol level wasn't bordering on clogged artery worries.

Despite being overweight, I was healthy.

That was 5 years ago...longer, actually, being that my Jelly will be 6 in December.  So, for the past 6 years, I've been without a physical examination to check for stuff that I may have.

A little scary to think about.

In that time, I decreased my weight quite a bit...and then put it all back on.  I'm about the same weight now as I was before I got pregnant... maybe a little heavier, being that I don't actually remember how much I weighed when I got pregnant.

I know I was big.

I know that because up until I lost 80lbs a couple of years ago, my adult weight was always between 260 and 300lbs.

But, I'm older now.  That probably increases certain chances of something now being wrong.. something now indicating that I really have to buckle down before I open up the gates of Obesity Hell.

I dread standing on that scale in the doctor's office.  I dread them hooking me up to a blood pressure cuff.  I dread them checking my cholesterol level.  

It has to be done, though.  It needs to be done.  It's been too long since it's been done, and I don't want to die an early death because I was one of those people that only ever went to the doctor when I really needed to go...basically on death's door.  And that hasn't happened within those past 6 years, either.

So... I'm off.  To go get everything checked out.

Wish me luck... I feel like I might need it.

Till next time!